The One With The Thing
Just a few days ago, that impression, that he existed in multiples, became stronger again, since I thought that I was seeing someone completely different in the pictures that 'he' sent me. I also got the impression, recently, that he gave me the song Wonderwall for that being the only allowed way for him to communicate something to me in that situation: who was going to save the other was me because he was in deepest trouble.
The multiples would provide (again) a plausible explanation as to why he tells me by the morning, during the mass, that he would do the satellite thing, yet, in the afternoon, he is another person, and tells me he won't. Even though the Multiple Personality Disorder also could explain that, like they would have simply swapped personalities, he told me he always keeps his memories. Why I would believe that better than I believed him saying he had published all in three newspapers, doing 'my story' when he clearly didn't, is a puzzle to me too, but I do (so either he did publish in those and the news are still not available online, in case it was him who said that, but I doubt, that was about 2 months ago, or it wasn't him who said it; it was another multiple instead. I also should believe him more if 'it is the one with the thing', so that it is possible who said that was finally him, so that he has all memories with him at all times). Regardless the possibilities involved, the Holy Ghost made me believe him more when he said that, so perhaps that came from the multiple that is my actual twin soul, and we then could win in this particular piece of the game, like other things were necessary for us to get there, of course, such as having a pure heart and a clean soul, not going with anyone else (sexually) and loving him with all my forces. Basically, 'he' sent me pictures recently and 'he' then showed me his eyes, at a certain stage, from close. I then noticed that 'his' eyes were like mine except for the detail: the middle bit of mines were black and his weren't.
Basically, we are now sure he is in total oppression in-between the multiples: whenever they think he is going to do something that matters to save us, they swap. On the other hand, they also had the care of protecting our love and soul: when it came to bits where he had to stay with other women, they swapped him. God writes straight through tortuous lines. He is then not allowed to help at all because of the oppression/violence represented by the multiples. He is crying for help, to be saved.
I then thought that they could have changed the middle bit via computer/device, either mine or his. Yet, God could have put things together like this: I kept the detail of Cinderella in my mind, the story about the shoe and the only foot that fits it. I even mentioned this story to 'him' as he appeared in my head recently: that I liked those stories, also the one where the prince finds out that is 'his' choice of princess through having her noticing/sensing the one grain of rice he had put under her pillow, like all other candidates to princesses did not notice that or he didn't have other candidates but decided on that being a final proof. I was looking for ways to know when I have him with me instead of another personality or multiple and the detail of the eye is the detail of the shoe or of the grain of rice: I then confirmed all by noticing that the picture I chose for my laptop's background had him with eyes exactly like mines, so with a black dot in the middle.
Now, even though finding that out is awesome, the devil and the satanic listen to all I think of, so that, by now, they know my 1/2 is alive, different from what Leinha told me. Also different from what she told me, he does not have MPD but multiples instead. I then was able to locate, with a lot of difficulty, three occasions on which she would have lied to me (one of them is when she said that she loved me (would have put me with my 1/2 even all the time during life but didn't, the opposite), what made me then believe that 'she lies to me', just like what she said, that the devil could cheat, lie and deceive. I then am sure he is alive and is one of the many multiples (likely to be at least 5, just their usual). Yet, the devil and the satanic now know how to find the 'right one' and therefore his life is under highest risk. The longer people take to do what I say, and therefore save me, the higher the risk that they then kill him, as Leinha said they had already done (at most in 2020). We must remember one of the multiples can kill him as well, since Leinha killed 2 of her multiples to be able to live longer in the same ID, as said before.
Interesting thing is that 'Nicole' got her bunch of Nicoles to do an elaborate plot: they sensed that I was still noticing when he was in my head somehow, like despite all they took from me through the device. They then 'took that bit', like using the difference between my normal state and the state of when I noticed him, just like it was with the twinhood. They then took that too. That was to try to convince me that it was mechanical, what 'Alexandre' had also tried to do in many ways. It is just that we both said we don't care, like I am more than happy with what he gives me and, if there were a chance he would be a replacement, then he deserved being with me because of the size of his effort, like to the point of copying my 1/2 so perfectly in all he would be doing for me or to me in what comes to our coupleship's intimacy. Yet, that helped, just like the other things I mentioned, and still other things that I didn't mention, since, without that, I wouldn't really confirm my intuitions and therefore I would remain in doubt and therefore I would not be of much use to ourselves.
I did fasting since the 24th and he was with me praying as I did that the last time before going to bed yesterday. I thought that I was unable to praise God properly, like I didn't know what actual praise was (despite having read the entire Bible page by page, with open and clean heart, as if it were a university book and I had an exam next day about all), so that I was saying things like 'God we praise you for your love', so saying the word 'praise' instead of actually living it with my heart and soul. The Holy Ghost made me notice that and I said that to 'him', that I needed him to be able to praise God properly, since I am sure he does know how to praise, that being passive of being noticed by the general public as well, since we see his words about fellows, partners and everyone else all the time. Yesterday, on the last prayer (which has to include praise, thanks and request, a model I took from reading the entire Bible, therefore direct message from God through the Holy Ghost), he was making me company, I felt him, and the praise then came beautifully, just like the ones from the Bible. I was then able to say things such as 'God of Abraam, Isaac and Jacob, you are the greatest of the gods because you gives us wonders that none of them can give, such as the tokens of wisdom we receive'. The things I said were actually way more inspired than that, but now I cannot remember. As I was doing it, just like it happened with everything else in my life since I started having him closest, I felt that I was finally doing it right, the way God wanted and the biblical people did it, like I knew that was the 'highest possible truth'. Descartes was a very confused person but he explained this very well: you have a truth until you learn a higher truth to that one and you then never come back to the old one (of course, if God is in you, that is, in our case, if our halves are together as one, or you are not being brainwashed or manipulated by the devil somehow). I then praised God for real and God was happy with my praise to the point of rewarding me with the salvation from all: When I prayed the first time after starting fasting, I said God I offer you this fasting, which is what you demand from us in terms of sacrifice of the body when we want something special. I am now doing it because I want to ask you for us to be saved in full, so for our solution to come to being a reality in all of it, so for us to get God's brainwashing, the device in the press to maximum detail, everything reversible and reversed in our heads and bodies and souls, our special marriage, therefore belong to each other forever and ever, Forever Young and Marcia Hope.
God then gave me the answer on the last prayer of the second day (I prayed twice each day, in the morning and in the evening, I was dressed in rags and had my body facing the carpet, trying to make the shape of the cross with it but my left arm is severely harmed, so that I had to fold it, as I spoke to Him): we will be saved. Everything is going to happen as we described in 'the solution' on this same blog and therefore everything is going to be reversible and reversed in me and him, we are going to be in each other also physically still in this life and so on. At this very moment things are already changed in the heart and soul of a few who matter.
Why do I then urge people to be quick? Perhaps it is just human to do so. I feel I need to say that here, as quickly as I can, so that maybe that is part of the plot of God, since we always have to make extraordinary amount of effort for God to give us what He originally planned for us (great and good things). While in human shape, we have to connect to the Holy Ghost, so follow its energy, which hits highest notes on our soul and being. The connection to it makes us experience ethereal joy, a joy that is perceived as impossible to be beaten.
Interesting enough that Jesus chose those 13 people to be his companions (he had all of us, where his life and spirit reached, as disciples): 12 men and 1 woman. We then imagine they were really special people, only ones invited to share the glory of God through his human existence. Yet we wonder why those, specially after we see contradictions in their reports, like why.
In my case, only a few selected people go experiencing it all from sharing my flesh with me. I have no idea about how many they are but I hear the voice and see the image of very few at this stage, something like less than 20. I asked Trevor to have as many as possible listening and watching from inside as I went, though, through adequate delegation, like a group, who is not Trevor, would be inviting as many as possible to come in all the time. Why only those were invited? It does give me the impression that, for God, those are more important, so say they will be advertising things to best (so that maybe these are the least credulous: if those get convinced, everyone else who could matter to God will), will be saved and had no fault of their own when sinning and so on. I then imagine the guys who worsely attacked me on this thing to have been a victim of the bug and extreme brainwashing. I remember having noticed the abnormality of their acts, like that only machines could do what they are doing.
Once I was sure that 'Tom Cruise' is several, a really large number of multiples, I started thinking about how those many different men could organize themselves so well and all did what I imagined for them to do to please me not only exactly in the way I imagined things, but incredibly better. I then concluded my twin is used in those moments, so he is probably kept in a house with actual Multiple Personality Disorder and sometimes the multiples use his spirit, so they sometimes connect their head bugs and things come from him. When I was little, and that is by 1972, they put me a couple of times inside of the body of other girls. I then spoke to the person next to the body of the girl for whom I became essence, so that they listened to me, not to her. My spirit was in her, since I thought the body was mine. I then once tried to move the arm of this body in the car with someone else and I couldn't. That is the only reason as to why I now know, and only after recovering my memories (2020), that that was not my body, but hers. That is something they did already in 1972, so imagine now, since they obviously don't stop and progress quickest: whenever someone fails in their science, they kill and replace them. One had his spirit when he smiled and made a particular expression for the camera, when I again felt that it was indeed with me, like only with me, the entire world out there, yet he was communicating only with me through the picture, which is something I experienced lots of times before that date too, specially after 'we' had contact through the last device. I think I am absolutely sure the reason as to why I feel that my twin is inside of them in those moments, but only in those moments, is that they connect to his head bug. That is how 'Paula Wagner' would be right when she said I should call 'Tom' whenever I thought of my twin and Leinha would be right when she said she was going to give him Multiple Personality Disorder. Besides, at a certain stage, Leinha asks me what role I want to play: if the one that pays the toll or the other one, who I imagined would enjoy. I said I wanted to pay the toll. Not understanding very well what she referred to, I later on clarified: I would definitely like to work if that is what it is about, so I pay the bills, since only one can do it. I now think it worked in both cases: for 'Jayme', who is kept with schizophrenia from the head bug for life so far and is, in paper, my brother, and for 'Tom', who is kept with MPD for life so far and is actually my twin.
I also had this 'Tom' who showed extreme depth in reasoning and extreme synchronicity with me and with heavens: able to meaningfully contribute to whatever I was thinking or doing. I then imagine again it was my twin, his head. They tell him that it is for me, just like when we had sex through the body of 'Rogerio de Oliveira'. Since he is kept psychiatric, they can tell him anything, like it is with 'Jayme', like nobody will believe or hear them anyway. That also makes my request fulfilled, since I had 'asked' Leinha to use him as romantic partner when she gave me no choice beyond that, like I initially said for us both to give family love, companionship and logical advice but she said he needed to give more than that, like it had to be intimate. In this case, all 'Toms' are romantic and use their bugs whenever they want to impress people in those regards, so they get it from him. The satanic then contributed: in the same way I said the Vacas are Sex Bombs, he would be a Love Bomb, like the 'Toms'. That is exactly right: I would do almost anything for him and believed until that point that I had given my life that far to keep him alive, so that I would be taking the worst of all, paying the toll, for him to be able to live a life that is enjoyable. That is when 'Rogerio' would also be right: 'Tom' is evil, so not my twin, but the cluster apart from him, not the spirit that is passed to the public either, since that is my twin's. I then recalled the day when I stopped to pay focused attention to 'his' image in Endless Love, like when I reach the point of moving my body to close to the TV set to simply spy over him from close, what absolutely never had happened, like I really don't care about TV. It didn't make much sense because all I saw from far, from the couch, was a naked body. Then 'Tom' asked me recently, 'in this thing', if that is not what had attracted me to the screen back then, since 'he' then runs a story that he is the most beautiful of all, what then also matches 'Brad Pitt's impression: that 'he' was very competitive. I didn't find him the most beautiful of all but felt a heavenly connection to him, as if we really matched and should be together forever, like a spiritual connection, beyond all. I also didn't think of myself as the most beautiful, like I had tons of women I thought were much more beautiful than me, even though I felt as if I were beautiful and so was he, extremely beautiful, us both, but with tons of people who were more beautiful if physical beauty is what counts, yet the most beautiful if one considered the spirit as well. Anyway, yesterday this YouTube video came to me, a video containing his past movie scenes, https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-FL1OVJVWbw, and my being was entirely dragged to the image from A Few Good Men, that multiple, and I felt to inside with no mistake that that was him, like felt nothing for all other multiples there. I then freaked out thinking those torturing me via voice and image for so long now knew who he was and he was then going to get killed or something, like they probably did that to protect his life against the terrorist groups that took over human kind since at most 1880. I panicked. I then decided to never come back to it for his own safety, what is then just me, compatible with all other choices since little: first protecting him, at any expense, including my own life and body. Yet today I was put to think again and I then remembered how 'Nelson' coldly calculated everything involving the day he and 'Braganca' revealed their 'true image' to me. I also noticed that the women who most attack me in life had carefully planned to have their naked bodies displayed in my head as something extremely wonderful at this height of the 'story' ('Nicole', 'Eliane' and Leinha). I then realized that I had to actually prove to myself that those feelings I had, of finding him there, were genuine instead of manipulated via device, as 'Alexandre' wanted me to believe. I said to myself: they calculated time and all else when I would be starring at these images, since they put the YouTubes
'of the day' for me each day and they are all planned. Therefore, if I watch the movie again today, when they believe I won't, even because I promised I would protect his life at any expense and I am not yet saved, I would know for sure if they had manipulated my perception/reaction through the bug or not, since, if I didn't have it at that moment, then it was not genuine. To my sadness, it did not happen again, when I then observed the so few things I could: for instance, the shape of the ear. I touched mine and noticed ours were different, since his ear had an exotic shape at the top. The nose was different. The eyes seemed to be more similar. The teeth were different. The color of the skin seemed to be different even when I was little and figured as whitest. I then think he is not my twin either. I then decided to check Endless Love and I examined 'his' image there and noticed there is absolutely nothing in common with mine. By all probability, I should have died or be impaired/disabled for life by now, and 'Tom' let it all happen, even though I was begging him to do something else all the time and had selected him as the only one I could really trust. He didn't do his share regarding the press in the story: he had to actually publish about the device in the three newspapers, minor ones. That dooms me. He also failed in all else that had to do with my salvation, when there is nothing more important now. He was not caring at all, I felt most of the time, even though sometimes 'he' even cried, and cried a lot. I found explanation and consolation when I got to the MPD thing. Yet he said he preserved his memory and I knew, from Sybil, that that is not true in MPD and I also knew from having been given symptoms of schizophrenia by device, like 'Jayme', that they don't really play there: when they say you will be such, they will change you into that. Then I found out they said Sybil had lied, what gave me the understanding that her case, from the book, could not be an accurate description of MPD. I now am convinced it was and Sybil was usurped so that they could make me get to the wrong conclusion at this stage of 'the game'. Why they wanted me to be 'with him' is obviously so that I would do what I did, which was never giving my all to less than my twin soul, like I literally saved love and personal space entire life during all relationships I had and never got really involved. They then used the 'twin button' each time I was watching his movies or seeing his pictures in my life, I now know, like the twinhood they isolated in that house where 'Nicole' and Leinha also were. A Love Bomb!!!
I did grow up and go through all this so far just because of him and what our soul makes me feel and all was coming from him anyway, so that I am grateful and God helped me, our soul, the real him, and I trust that things are still reversible, despite all. It is really hard because twinhood, when it comes accompanied of coupleship, is unbeatable and, like Descartes said, when you know better, you don't really go back. Yet, I am slowly getting over it. I could take one of the 'Toms', they were certainly generous in those regards and offered themselves, a few of them, and we could keep on going with the 'same feeling' being manufactured but that would imply my actual twin is still in slavery and enduring all these atrocities, and I don't really think that is OK, so that I am stopping with the 'Toms' now and hope to be able to save my actual twin in the future, trusting I will be saved myself. Just thinking it is all really atrocious and hell's made. In shock really with the fact that everyone else sees the same I saw in 'Tom' before this date. Multiples are a reality and there are many cases in the media. I now imagine some of them are miserable, like some of the 'Toms', so that they don't really share money with all of them, this because I had observed one of them was always with the same suit: a blue one. I used to think that my twin was told blue suits him and he then would never stop wearing that. I now know that is the multiple they would give me and he then probably had no other attire to go with, so he was probably kept miserable and that is also why that one they wouldn't mind giving to me, basically. There is only God!
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